Sleepless Nights

It is bad enough that some nights I find myself worrying over stuff and can't sleep, but when the full moon is peeking in, and even when I cover my windows and do all sorts of things... I still can't sleep.

Well, it doesn't help that I've got Internet problems. The thing is I have a separate Internet Provider from my phone company. Just recently the provider sent me a note saying that my phone company rejected their billing. I had to send off a separate check to them. Since I didn't want this to go on indefinitely--or have my Internet go down--which happened once before--I called my phone company to complain. I was told they really didn't know why this was happening. However it has much to do with the fact that this phone company finally made the conversion from the last company that was here. Long story short, they may have lost my needs for Internet in the transfer.

And as you know, whenever anyone has you on line and they have some better service, they will try and talk you into it. Well they had a pretty good deal going. Free hook up. And they said it cost less. Well, it really didn't, but it wasn't that much more. (Yes. They lied, of course)

Sounds good. I didn't jump on it right away. I know better.

There are a few issues that I tried to explain to the young lady on the other side that my inside modem on my computer was fried, and I had to buy an outside one. I had been told it would cost more for them to add something--this was more than a year ago--for an outside modem (I have no idea why). Now I'm being told that it could be hooked up free. Someone has to come into the house. I'd have to set up an appointment. The bigger problem is I'd have to bring this up to my husband. Which I did. It went okay. But nothing was set up at this point which means I'd have to bring this up again. I hate doing that. It never goes well.

Tonight I tossed and turned and realized I had not even gotten assurance that the original problem I had called about was resolved on their end. I could loose my Internet! So, I got up at 2 a.m. and emailed her. I really don't want to have a new conversation about this with a different person. That also gives me sleepless nights.

And as much as I'd like to switch, the unknown haunts me. What if I set this all up, the person comes in here and looks at my computer and tells me they need to do something else and that will cost more. I live in constant fear that someone might tell me that what I thought was going to happen isn't. I don't trust anything. Never have. If something bad can happen, it usually does.

So, going along with the whole I-hate-change thing, I'm going to try and just keep what I've got. I really hate the idea of getting in touch with everyone on my other emailing address (including publisher), and tell them I'm switching--and then it doesn't happen.

Okay, that's off my chest. You all can go to sleep. It's now almost 3 a.m. I'll lie back down, but doubt that I'll sleep. I have to get up at 4 a.m.